Thursday, December 08, 2011

735 Days dan Saya Masih Terduduk Di Bawah Shower

Hello again...
beberapa bulan ini saya disibukkan dengan pekerjaan2 yang tiada henti, hampir gak ada waktu untuk yang lain..yang ada cuman kerja..kerja..kerja..yaa...Alhamdulillah beberapa saat lalu masih diberi kesempatan berlibur selama 2 minggu lebih ke negeri cina..bukan..bukan untuk mencari kitab suci, bukan untuk menuntut ilmu apalagi untuk pamer foto di facebook, update di twitter atau forsquare biar dikata anak g4uLz..tapi untuk pengalaman hidup.

ok..kemaren sore saya dikejutkan dengan pesan BBM dari seekor panda bantet dengan isi "735 days!" awalnya saya berpikir "nih anak knapa? jualan togel kah.." sedikit berpikir keras baru saya ingat, oh..735 days adalah hari ke 735 dimana saya mengenal seekor panda bantet itu. Sedikit bernostalgia..yaa..saya mengenal dia dari seorang teman saya -sebut saja si beruang- pada saat saya masih menaklukkan ibu kota. Awalnya saya pikir dia pacar teman saya, ternyata bukan..ternyata dia hanyalah teman virtual sejak lama.

Waktu berjalan, ternyata dia enak untuk diajak ngobrol meskipun kadang kalo bete nya kumat ngeselin abis, bikin garuk2 tembok. Hingga suatu saat saya putus dengan mantan saya. saya cerita ke dia, well..hampir semua cerita sedih senang saya selalu cerita ke dia..tapi tidak sebaliknya..yeah..dunia ini tidak adil jenderal. Dari sering cerita2 itu akhirnya makin deket. Sempet menaruh hati padanya, tapi saya masih ragu karna dia masih belum bisa moved on dari mantan nya. si beruang tau apa yang saya rasakan, dia 100% mendukung..tapi yaa..cinta itu gak semudah membalikkan telur di wajan teflon. Beruang pun meredam gejolak emosi saya dengan kata2 "ya udah yakinkan dulu, kalo masih ragu ya temenan aja gak usah pake perasaan". ampe suatu saat, saya harus meninggalkan ibu kota untuk mencari nafkah di pulau dewata. si Beruang bilang ke saya "kalo kamu bener2 suka, bilang ke dia mumpung masih bisa ketemu" sampe di hari saya harus meninggalkan ibu kota, Beruang menyusul saya di Stasiun Kereta, saya pikir dia datang sendiri, ternyata dia ngajak si panda bantet..surprised.speechless..seneng? YA EYALAAH...jadwal keberangkatan kereta masih lama, akhirnya kita bertiga killing time di monas.. si Beruang berkali2 "menghilang" seakan memberi kesempatan saya dan dia untuk mengobrol dari hati ke hati..tapi yaa inilah saya, orang yang gak mau terlalu terburu-buru dalam menyatakan perasaan..jadi lah..perasaan yang tak pernah terungkapkan.

Kemaren di BBM, si panda bantet sempet bilang kalo dia sempat membuka hati buat saya tapi sayangnya saya gak menyadarinya..padahal perasaan saya ke dia amat sangat..yaa gitu deh..ternyata dia punya perasaan yang sama dengan saya. Ternyata sebelum saya pindah ke bali, dia udah punya perasaan itu..dan sekarang saya cuman bisa menyesalinya. kenapa saya gak ungkapin aja pas di monas pas hari terakhir ketemu dia?!

Pelan sih..tapi dalem..jujur saya meneteskan air mata pas tau apa yang dia bilang kemaren. Tapi apa daya, semua udah terlambat, sekarang dia udah punya seseorang di hatinya dan dia sangat mencintainya. Saya tidak bisa apa-apa, saya cuman bisa tersenyum (sambil duduk di bawah shower mainin silet) menyesali diri saya kenapa tidak menyadarinya sedari dulu. Sekarang kita cuman bisa berteman, yang penting saya lega karna saya tau bahwa saya sudah pernah ada di hatinya meskipun hanya sesaat..mungkin saya cuma bisa berkata "saya bodoh..saya bodoh..saya bodoh.."


sebuah quote dari seekor panda bantet :

"Makanya kalo suka ama orang bilang aja, sapa tau sama2 suka..ntar nyesel lagi kalo udah disamber orang"

Beberapa hal yang akan sangat aku rindukan dari kamu..saat menatap mata pandamu, saat melihat senyum mu yang terindah, saat kamu bilang "patung betutu" dengan logat bali.. saat kau peluk dan kau kecup keningku.. dan saat2 lainnya...

Yaa..last but not least.. doaku untukmu..

"udah terlalu sering kamu disakitin seseorang, untuk kali ini aku gak mau liat kamu sakit lagi, gak mau liat kamu nangis lagi, aku cuman pingin liat kamu tersenyum..semoga kamu bahagia ya :)) "

11 Comments:

At 10:48 AM , Anonymous panda said...

Days: 736
Cerita dibalik 2tahun 6hari yg beru terungkap di publish.. Senyum geli dan haru 'wah-ternyata-begitu-ya'..

"Jalan hidupmu akan berubah nanti Dan kita simpan semua kenangan ini Kuminta kau jangan menangis Tegarlah sekuat karang"
- aku kau kereta, by: Jikustik -

 
At 4:50 PM , Blogger Annisa Reswara said...

Jodoh g kemana. Meski sekarang disamber orang, kalo jodoh,besok pasti ketemu lagi di depan penghulu,hehe

 
At 9:52 AM , Anonymous Fiel Kautsar said...

"Makanya kalo suka ama orang bilang aja, sapa tau sama2 suka..ntar nyesel lagi kalo udah disamber orang"
Mending tuh mas, klo disamber orang. Klo dipelet orang gimana? wuih tambah sedih. hehehe.

 
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